Better Faggotry Through Chemistry part 1

First of all, I am not advocating anyone taking any medication not prescribed for them by their physician.  Now, that being said, I have been taking small doses of estrogen (estradiol) for about 15 years.  Not the big huge mega doses that transitioning TSs take to feminize their body and brain rapidly.  But tiny little doses that barely registered at first in the battle against that evil testosterone.  But gradually, just gradually over the years they began to take a toll, a welcome toll on my unwanted manhood. Oh occasionally a large dose of hormones was thrown in, generally to time with my wife so that if both of us had PMS, I was going to be the queen bitch of that time of the month.  Another advantage of low dosage was no large buildup in breast tissue, just maybe a triple A breast but damn have I got some fairly large sensitive nipples.  Let a man latch on to one of those babies for a couple of minutes pleasure and I'll be down on my knees.  But then usually all a man has to do is pull out a nice cock and I'll be down on my knees anyway. LOL  So yes, my breasts are sensitive but not the main effect that I was looking for.  When I started HRT my main goal was to destroy as much gonadal tissue as I could.  And to some extent it has worked.  To begin with, my right testicle, due to child hood damage was only half there where as the left side was close to normal.  What I had was chriptordism which is nothing more than an undescended testicle.  Due to the possibility of damage caused by body heat, most of these are discovered and corrected in infancy.  Mine was not discovered until I was 13 so the heat had taken its toll and although the doctor tried, over the years that testicle shrunk to about half size of normal and was basically useless.  Now with me me taking estrogen for a very long time, that right testicle has reascended and what little is left of it is nothing more than connecting tissue.  The left testicle is shrinking also and is now down to where the other was when all this began.  I'm almost tempted to just take a huge dose and shrink it also.  But I am basically satisfied.  For all intents and purposes, I am chemically castrated, I just still barely have one of my balls.  One of the side effects of chriptordism is that, while the not descended testicle has a high risk of cancer, the other testicle has an even greater danger.  I have hopes that I will find a urologist who will remove both due to my age.  It would be so lovely to have a flat groin under that shrunken penis.  That's the other advantage of estrogen.  It will eventually shrink you down from where you were.  Even with low doses over the years I have gone from around 5 1/2 inches to about 21/2 or maybe 3''.  Let's put it this way, If my wife wants a real man, she had better go find him because I sure as hell can't satisfy her with the little bit I have left.

Just a little teaser

A teaser until I get time to sit and compose something.

Did you ever wonder if your mother came to tuck you in and kiss you goodnight with cum on her lips because she just sucked a cock?  You're wondering now aren't you.  LOL

Weekend at an exclusive resort

Not me, of course, but for my wife.  She is spending the weekend at a very nice resort in another state very near where we used to live.  And of course she is spending it with a man she was fucking several years ago.  Back then this man (call him Bill) was a regional VP for a nationwide Fortune 500 company and was promoted to Senior VP which caused him to move to their corporate headquarters.  So back to this weekend.  Bill is making an inspection tour of his old region and he certainly is not staying in just any old hotel.  Let's put it this way, the cheapest rooms at this resort go for about $500 a night and for a villa like Bill is staying in, the price goes through the roof.  So for tonight and tomorrow night, my wife is sleeping and being fucked on 350 count Egyptian cotton sheets in a villa that's probably costing over $1500 a night for the basics, not counting room service, spa treatments and whatever the hell else they want.  I was told if I was a good boy, she would bring me one of those really expensive robes they put in the rooms.

As you know of course from reading earlier blogs I don't resent the men my wife fucks but I do have to admit that I have a little grudge against Bill.  Now to explain that one, we have to go back to 2002.  At that time, I was working a rather weird shift that got me home at around 9PM.  I couldn't take calls during work so I could only reach my wife during meals and breaks. I had talked to her on  my last break and we had planned a late dinner, a movie and (since I could still perform then) a little sex that night.Something just for us for a change. Especially since she had been out five nights before with other men.  I called on the way home but got no answer and arriving home, I did at least fined a note that told me Bill had called out of the clear blue and wanted her to come up to that resort for the night which she did.  So it was dinner at Waffle House, no movie and an empty bed for me.  Needless to say, I was quite pissed but at least she had the decency to call and wake me up around 3 am to check and see if I was ok.  It was at that point she realized I was pissed ( and realised she forgot about dinner, movies and sex or at least sex with me.)  She wanted to come home and make it up to me (it would have been 4:30 before she could had gotten home and I was tired so I told here no thanks.  That she should stay the night and the next day if she wanted.  She made noise about coming home anyway and I told her that he would have to sleep on the porch because I would put all the chains on the doors along with chairs in the doors to make sure she couldn't get in.  This was the beginning of the end as far as sex goes for us.  After getting stood up that night, I quit even trying with her and any sex was originated only by her.  After a while, she just quit trying and now it's been over 3 years.  Oh it's probably been 30 minutes to an hour for her if that long since she's with Bill now in the same resort.

So  back to the weekend.  Bill wanted her to come down and enjoy his waterfront ocean view villa with him.  Right, he wanted her to come down there so that he could fuck her brains out for two nights and two days.  Maybe I'll get one of those plush robes that are worth $10 and they charge you $100 for.  Bill gets her pussy for the weekend and I end up with a shitty robe.  Oh well.

Sissy

Oh Boy

Late last year one of my wife's boyfriends was transferred by his company to another city about 2000 miles away.  Since this one seemed to be her favorite of the four men she was fucking at the time, she was, to say the least, disappointed.  Today when she got a note from him that he is moving back, I swear her pussy was wet and her nipples hard while she answered him.  As she described her lovers, #1 was just interested in fucking with minimum foreplay which is ok with her because she does love a nice hard fuck.  While their styles varied, #2 and #3 were similar in that they both liked a good bit of foreplay and while, #3 has a couple of inches on #2, #2 likes to cuddle afterwards while #3 is usually needing to get back to work.  So between the two of them it balances out.  Now for #4, the one moving back.  His idea of foreplay is lunch, followed by some mild petting in the living room before adjourning to the bedroom for an after lunch snack of pussy.  He doesn't even consider penetration until she has had at least two orgasms before he begins working her over with what I'm told is a nicely over sized cock.  To top it off, when he travels, he always brings her a little something as a gift.  Once on an overseas trip he even brought her tea, biscuits (cookies to us) and jam.  Now with her other boyfriends (except #2 most of the time) if she isn't really in the mood, she'll put them off for a day or two.  #2 usually plans a week or two in advance so she generally meets him on his schedule.  However, when this one (#4) calls she's usually in his apartment and ready before you can say cuckold.  Several things have happened this year to cause a decrease in her fucking her men, business travel, weather since one has a business greatly impacted by weather and some family illnesses.  But with number 4 coming back, I have a feeling that my cuckolding is going to increase in frequency.  This would normally be welcome since I always allowed myself 3 masturbations for every time a man fucked her.  However the last two times she's been with her lover, normally the only time I get an erection it's been dead, nothing, nada, zip, zero reaction.  It stays at it's little 1.5 to 2" shriveled up size so not even a chance to masturbate.  Who knows, my pathetic little imitation of a real man's cock may have had it's last hurrah.  I can always hope so anyway.

Sissie

What Type of Cuckold Are You Test Results

I found a quiz online that determines what kind of cuckold you are from four categories.  They are the Sissy GF Cuckold, the Sexually Useless Cuckold, the Passive Cuckold and the Active Slave Cuckold. This is my score:

You Scored as sissy gf cuckold

you are a slutty little girl wanabe, so you understand how important it is for your wife to be delt with by a real man. sometimes you even double date with her and get treated and like the slutty girl you are.

sissy gf cuckold 100%

sexualy useless cuckold 100%

pasive cuckold 67%

active slave cuckold 17%
 
The top two categories showing 100% means I tied between sissy gf and sexually useless cuckold.  Both are accurate since I have double dated with her (actually several menage a trois fluffing her boyfriends and cleaning up afterward).  Add to that a cock which, on the rare occasion it gets hard, is still less than 3 inches and is usually about 1 inch and limp as week old lettuce.  Something like that certainly adds up to sexually useless.  As far as 67% passive cuckold goes, I sometimes help fasten her stockings to her garterbelt, pick out her clothes to wear, help with her makeup and even make suggestions about what lingerie to buy at the store ("John would like that on you" or "Bill would drool seeing you in this.")  I kiss her goodby when she's leaving to visit a lover and tell her to have a good time.  I kiss her when she gets back knowing she's sucked his cock and ask if she had fun.   I would call that pretty passive.  Finally since we really aren't into the domme/sub roles, 17% active slave is about right.     I think it's pretty accurate for just a 12 question quiz.

You can find it at: http://quizfarm.com/quizzes/new/kinkybeckytv/what-type-of-cuckold-are-you/

Luv ya all,
Sissie

Penis size charts

 I've been looking at some penis size charts lately just to see how I measure up or maybe that should be how I really don't measure up.  Chart A up above is the authentic women's penis preference chart, compiled from a survey done of women and what size cocks they preferred.  If you notice on the chart that A blocks marked in red are what women consider ideal or perfect.  Green B blocks are very satisfying but not ideal while cream C blocks are satisfying. Blue D blocks are enjoyable and white E blocks are not enjoyable as too small or large or any combination of the two. So now let's just look at 3 people on this chart starting with John.  If you locate John on the top right of the chart, you will notice that his is actually listed as an area as not enjoyable and I have to dispute this.  John was only the second person (so I thought at the time) to fuck my wife after me.  Despite what the chart says, I watched her face when John slid that 8.75" long, 8"circumference cock into my wife and in no way was she not enjoying it.  John stroked his cock into her and she orgasmed. John fucked her really slow, she orgasmed.  John fucked her hard, she orgasmed. John kissed her, she orgasmed.  Basically whatever John did to her caused an orgasm.  Although she only got to spend a few hours with him, she was damned impressed.  So despite what the women who took this survey say, some parts of the "not enjoyable" area are in fact enjoyable, at least to some women.  But hey, my wife loves big cocks anyway.
Now let's look at the center of the chart, the red blocks labeled A.  This is the heart of the chart and shows the size cocks  the women surveyed for this like best.  If you will notice, there is a black dot on one of the red blocks with the name Roy beside it.  Roy, as I've talked about before, was the third person ( again so I thought at the time) to fuck my wife after we were married.  Just as a refresher so you don't have to look in other posts, her first time with Roy was a MFM with Roy and a friend of his.  We had set this up for the two of us so that we (wife and I) could actually fulfill a fantasy.  But about 10 days later we were talking on the phone when she told me Roy had called and he "wanted to see her again and was it OK with me."  Suddenly it was no longer about us, it was about her and her pleasure; this wouldn't be fulfilling a fantasy, this would be an affair.  Since I was working out of town at the time, I had no way to prevent her from doing it and if she was asking she was going to do it anyway so I said yes it was fine.  But the agreement was only twice a week at the most.  So she would stop at Roy's house (five minutes from where she worked) usually on Monday and Thursday.  Soon though it was things like "can I stop by today, too?" on a Wednesday or "traffic was really heavy so I stopped at Roy's for a few minutes" (90 minutes of so).  Gradually twice a week per our agreement became 3, then 4 and then 5 times a week with her sometimes spending the night.  Basically she was becoming addicted to Roy's cock and even when I was home on weekends she would ask if I minded her running by his place for a little while.  It's been more than 8 years since she last fucked Roy's "perfect" cock but I know she still thinks about it.  She's looked to see if he's on Facebook and even drive's by his house occasionally so she still misses fucking him.
If you look at the lower left hand side of the chart, you will see a black dot labeled Me that is actually off the chart on both length and circumference.  Short and narrow.  Need I say anything else?
Check the next two charts and then move on below them to read more.

You've looked at these two charts, the first of which is average penis length by age and you will notice a black dot between the columns for 11 and 12 year old boys.  If you look a little closer, you'll also notice that the dot is at about the same point as average length for a 12 year old boy.  Yep, the average 12 year old boy has a cock slightly larger than mine and beyond 12, I get left behind.  What's makes me even more pathetic is looking at the second chart.  Notice that the normal size range for 10-11 year old boys is 1.6 to 3.1 inches which is a 1.5 inch variance.  Now apply a bell curve to that and the top 10% of 10 and 11 year olds will be somewhere between 2.95 and 3.1 inches or to put it another way if I walked into a room with 100 fifth grade boys, 10 of them would have a bigger cock than me.  By age 12, about 50% would have bigger cocks than me and by age 15, it increases to 99%.  Does that explain why women have actually laughed at me when they saw what I have or rather don't have?

UPDATE: Now that I've been castrated, my penis has shrunk to the size of an infant/toddler.  I am now right at 1" limp and being a eunuch with no testosterone, limp is a permanent condition.

 

Finally let's look at Kinsey's chart on penis length.  If you notice on the low end, Kinsey didn't even allow for anyone under 3.75 inches so again I'm not even on the chart.  If I had to guess, probably under 3 inches would be .001% which would be 1 in every 100,000 men would have a dicklette like me instead of a real cock. If you move up to 8 inch cocks you'll see that 1% of men, or 1 in 100 have a cock that big.  Of course, as I wrote earlier, Roy had such a cock and she was fucking him regularly for at least two years.  Now move on up to the 8.75 inch cocks and it becomes 1 in 1000 men with a cock that size.  So she's been fucked by one of the smallest and fucked by two of the best.  Is it any wonder she hasn't wanted to even try getting my cock into her pussy for 3 years?  Or is it any wonder that she has a date with one of her boyfriends next week and will probably be fucking him on my birthday.  Oh well, usually when she's got a dick in her, I manage to get an erection so maybe I'll actually be able to masturbate on my birthday.  That would be nice.

Hmmm, I wonder what a DNA test would show

Over my earlier posts, I've discussed that I'm a sissy, a faggot, a cuckold and just a general overall wimp.  After all, if given a choice between sex with my wife and sucking a big cock hard to guide it into her, I would suck the cock!  I'm pretty much impotent and about the only time I can even get an erection is when I know she's in some man's bed with his cock buried deep in her.  I don't know exactly how long it was but the first time she cuckolded me was a few months after we were married with an old boyfriend.  So now you will understand why, when my son dropped by the other day to visit I started wondering.  Now he looks a lot like my wife in many ways.  He's also blonde, broad shouldered, tall and (from seeing him accidentally a few times as a teen) WELL HUNG.  A great combination of everything that I am not!  In fact, no one in my family or her's is built anything like him.  I did get to thinking about it, remembering back to that time when she got pregnant.  One of my childhood friends was around a lot back then and he is blonde, broad shouldered, tall and well hung.  Kind of makes you wonder doesn't it?

OMG!!!!

Just a short little blurb.  My wife got a message on the adult site she belongs to (and I pay for) from a guy who would like to meet her or maybe that should be meat her.  I say that because this is what he wants to shove in my wife's cunt.

I don't know how big that thing is but it looks massive.  I've written before that next month it will be three years since I've fucked her.  If she does end up being fucked by this it might be worth it to get some Cialis just to see if I could get hard enough to fuck her.  That way I could see just what a cock like that does to her pussy along with the bonus of knowing my pathetic little boy's cock could never match what he has.

I Love This Picture

(I had to remove the picture to comply with Google) I mean what faggot who likes riding a cock wouldn't love it.  Whenever I look at it, I like to think that the wife is on top, her husband is in the middle and one of the wife's well hung lovers is fucking hubby's ass.  Hubby has just been told that this lover wants his ass almost as often as he wants her pussy so whenever lover boy says so, hubby should just bend over and take the dick up his ass like a good faggot.  Although quite a few of the men who have fucked my wife have also fucked me, I've never been in this position as much as I would have liked it.  The closest I have ever come to this was once when we were visiting the apartment belonging to one of my wife's lovers.  When we first got there, my wife undressed (I didn't) before she and I took turns sucking his cock to get him revved up for her. He was rock hard when I moved over to the other side of the bed which gave the two of them room and he started fucking her.  Being the first time they had gotten together in about a week he lasted barely long enough to give her an orgasm before he dumped his first load in her pussy.  We relaxed on the bed and talked for a few minutes before he laid down on his back beside her and indicated he wanted me to suck his cock.  After a short period, he was hard again and moved me away before pulling her on top to ride his cock.  Of course this fuck lasted a lot longer and I know she had at least two orgasms before he dumped another load in her.  After that one we adjourned to the kitchen where we sat and talked more or actually they were talking.  I was actually struck by the fact that I was sitting in the kitchen of a man I had only met a little while earlier, he and my wife were naked while I was dressed, I had sucked his cock hard twice and he fucked my wife both times while I watched.  I also noticed that my wife was quite comfortable sitting at the table naked so it wasn't the first time the two of them had done this.  Plus she had her half closed eyes, "I am so fucked." look on her face.   What really surprised me was when he asked her if she was up for another and slid his chair back from the table looking at me.  So here I was kneeling on the floor sucking his dick again, the same dick that had fucked my wife twice earlier, trying to get it hard so he could fuck her a third time.  And get him hard again I did.  In just a couple of minutes we were back in the bedroom and he was fucking my wife doggie style.  Again I was just laying there watching and listening to her moaning, groaning, screaming, "Fuck me harder!" and in general making a lot of sounds I never heard when I fucked her.  Also I was understanding why, this being their third fuck, she was gone for hours whenever she came over to his apartment.  By the time he finally came in her pussy for the third time, she was so fucked out she was just twitching and making little sounds.  When he pulled his cock out of her, she just sprawled forward on the bed.  I had been laying there, on my side with my head at the end of the bed next to where she had been kneeling so when she went forward, his cock was just a few inches from my head.  I figured what the hell, I had already sucked it three times, I leaned over and took his cock in my mouth to clean the cum and pussy juice off of it.  Because his cock was soft, I was able to swirl it around in my mouth and play with it using my tongue, something I adore doing.  I don't know who was the most surprised, him or me, when he started getting hard again.  He kind of laughed and said he thought my wife was pretty used up.  Not being one to waste the opportunity, I turned around so he could fuck me doggie style.  Seeing what was going on, my wife crawled under me for a 69 and suddenly I was sucking the remains of three loads of cum out of my wife's pussy, her boyfriend was fucking me in the ass and my wife had her lips wrapped around the base of my cock (she can swallow an 8" cock so my pathetic little dick is no challenge for her).  Needless to say that was sensory overload for me.  Swallowing cum from the man whose hips were slamming into the cheeks of my ass while my wife worked her magic tongue around my cock caused me to have one of the hardest orgasms of my life.  I was trying to slam my ass back on the cock fucking me while at the same time trying to slam my cock forward to get my cock as deep in her mouth as possible.   So that's as close as I got to this picture, fucked in the ass while my dick was sucked.  Oh yeah, wish I could tell you he came a fourth time in my ass but the truth is he barely stayed hard long enough for me to cum.  Fucking my wife three times had just worn the poor fellow out.

Five Gallons

I have mentioned in earlier blogs that my wife has fucked over 200 real men besides the times she has fucked me, her tiny dicked, sissy faggot husband.  I was interested in another sissy faggot's blog where she was trying to calculate how many gallons of cum had been pumped out while masturbating to her blog. Well, I decided to apply the same math to my wife's dalliances and see about how much cum other men have pumped into her pussy.  So back to those over 200 men who have slid between her legs and gave her something I can't...a manly fucking.  Some of those men were one night stands but others fucked her 10, 20, 30 or 40 times and one of them I'm sure fucked her at least 200 times but for simplicity sake, lets say she fucked each man an average of 10-20 times.  This would mean overall she has been fucked by real men anywhere from 2000 to 4000 times.  Now let's say that 400 of those times those men were wearing a condom so let's estimate that real men have pumped cum into her pussy anywhere from 1600 to 3600 times at the average of 12 milliliters volume per cum.  This would give us a total of 19200 to 43200ml of cum with one gallon equaling 3785ml.   If you divide that out, it means that she has had somewhere between 5 and 11.5 gallons of cum injected by men into her cunt. Even if you deduct the times she has spent one, two or even three nights with her lovers at their home or in a hotel room out of town from her volume, I really don't think that would be enough to affect her total. Now, while I have never made a special thing of cream pies like some cuckolds do, I never minded eating her pussy after someone fucked her.  Hey, I'm a faggot!  If I'll suck cum right from someones cock and swallow it, why would I object to sucking second hand cum out of her pussy.  Getting back to our numbers though, if we go for the middle ground in the numbers, we would be looking at average of 8.25.  So just to round it off, lets say my wife has brought home a total of 8 gallons of cum since she started fucking real men instead of me. Now if you figure that I ate her pussy one in seven times she came home with cum in it, it would mean that I have swallowed at least a gallon of real men's cum secondhand.

One thing for sure is that about 40 men have contributed to her total since the last time I slid my little dick between her pussy lips almost 3 years ago.  Not that I would contribute much to her total if I still was able to fuck her.  I take a prescription med that has the side effect of reducing ejaculate and I take a low dose of estrogen which over the years has shrunk my testicles to the size of marbles and my dick to the size that it will fit in a 35mm film canister along with a drastic reduction in volume so, if men  pump out 12ml of cum, then my sissy volume is probably less than half a milliliter if that much.  She even commented on how little cum I made after one of the very few mercy blowjobs she's given me since that last fuck in July of 2008.  She didn't come right out and say it but the implications of her comment were that any one of the four guys she was fucking then was a lot more man than me.  Since I consider myself a sissy faggot instead of a man, not being as much of a man as the guys who fuck her is just fine with me.

Anorgasmia

Have you ever known anyone who could not orgasm?  It is actually a medically recognized condition complete with the name anorgasmia.  Nick was one of my wife's early lovers (probably only about the twentieth man to stick his dick in her) and no matter how long he fucked her or she sucked his cock, he couldn't orgasm.  Couple that with the fact he had tremendous stamina since he was a marathon runner and it meant you were going to be a while.  Most of the time my wife loved fucking him as would most women considering he was usually good for long bouts of sex.  Generally the only time my wife didn't like it was the times she would get sore and didn't want to or couldn't fuck her other lovers for a couple of days.  But, despite the fact that he couldn't orgasm, Nick did love to fuck and was sometimes frustrated that my wife couldn't go as long as he could.  That's part of how what became the usual arrangement came about. One Saturday morning, Nick and my wife were taking a break in the motel room to lube up with some more KY.  While doing that, they were talking about things they hadn't done but would like to try and Nick mentioned he would like to fuck a guy in the ass.  My wife asked if he was serious and when he said yes, she simply picked up the phone and called me at home.  Needless to say I was not expecting her to call me while she was out getting laid, much less out of the blue tell me that Nick wanted to fuck a man in the ass and ask if I was up for some cock.  After I picked my jaw up, being a good sissy faggot I answered "well yeah."   What we set up was for them to finish fucking, then Nick would go get lunch while my wife brought me the key to the motel room.  So there I was at 1pm on a Saturday afternoon in the same motel room where my wife had spent the morning with Nick pounding her pussy.  He had made it clear that he didn't want me dressed with makeup and jewelry because he wanted to fuck a guy in the ass, not some crossdressed sissy faggot.  Nick also made it clear that he didn't want ANYTHING other than to fuck me in the ass which really disappointed me when I got a look at his cock because I really, really, really wanted to suck his dick for a while.  Nick had probably the most beautiful cock I have ever seen.  It was long, most likely somewhere between 7 and 8 inches but it was really slender; actually my little dicklette, abut half his length, was thicker that him.  I don't know why I considered it so beautiful but I did.  Anyway, soon I was on my hands and knees with a good bit of KY in my ass*, Nick's cock was lubed and he was sliding into me.  I must say that, because he was so slender, Nick was probably the most comfortable at the start of any man I've fucked before or since.  No pain, just a nice feeling as he slid it up my ass.  Plus he was just so gentle and made sure that everything was ok before he began stroking in and out of me.  I started out on hands and knees but before long it was arms folded with my ass up and head down finally ending up laying flat, face down, with Nick all the time stroking his dick in and out of my ass.  One thing about that, I could smell my wife's perfume still on the pillow and it kept me thinking about the dick that was fucking me right then had been fucking her that morning.  It wasn't the first time we had both been fucked by the same man but it was the first time on the same day and in the same bed.  That somehow became our usual arrangement after that.  Nick would fuck my wife in the morning and fuck me in the afternoon but, and he never said why, he wouldn't have both of us in the room at the same time.  I'm sure that disappointed my wife since she seems to adore watching someone shove a dick up my ass.  I know Nick was married but I don't know if he could cum with his wife or not but my wife and I did compare at home and in the 20-30 times he fucked her along with the 5-10 times he fucked me, neither of us ever got Nick to cum.

*Note about the "good bit of KY in my ass" - My wife had this tubular syringe-like thing that she originally used to inject some type of cream into her pussy once when she had a yeast infection.  It screwed on to the end of the tube of medicine and then she squeezed the tube to fill it, slid it into her pussy and pushed the plunger.  I found out early on that it would also screw onto the end of a KY tube which is a wonderful thing for a faggot like me.  Fill the tube with KY, slide it into my ass, push the plunger and suddenly my sissy "pussy" is wet and ready to fuck.  Every faggot should have one of these.

For Wannabe Cuckolds - Part 4

Well what better time to start part four of this blog than right now.  Now when my wife is getting her second serious fucking by a second man in an 18 hour period.   Last night she spent about 3 hours with one of her current steady boyfriends and today is with another.  The boyfriend she's meeting this afternoon, who I have talked about before, is the one she's been seeing the longest time of any of her current four men.  So by tonight, having had the two of them in less than a day, she should be as satisfied as she ever is.  Of course two men in 18 hours isn't even close to being a record for her.  Not counting any gang bangs, orgies or trains, as far as I know her record is six men during five fucks in a space of about 14 hours on a Saturday.  Man number one was someone she knew from out of town and she had spent the night with him.  He was leaving on a flight but before he left, they got one in about 8am.  On her way home, another fuckbuddy called and wanted her to cum visit so to speak so she stopped at home for a quick shower and was on her way by 10am.  She was back home and we were having lunch about 1pm when another friend called so off she went again.  This particular friend had a roommate and she almost always fucked both of them.  That Saturday was no different.  So after a twin killing in the bedroom, she did a little shopping at the mall and was home by 6pm and was looking forward to some relaxation when Jay called.  Now normally she wouldn't have gone out after the day she already had but Jay was special to her and he lived fairly close by.  As tired as she was off she went again for her fifth man of the day because she always enjoyed Jay.  He had one of those pump implants that lets you actually pump up the cock to get it hard and for some reason, she loved being able to inflate it.  Now as many of her men as she had fucked that day, Jay was also the only one allowed to cum in her...everyone else had to use condoms.  After she got back from Jay's house, I was thinking about the fact she had fucked five men that day and currently was full of Jay's cum.  I thought what the heck and decided to see if she would go for number six, me.  I'm sure by this time that she was absolutely exhausted and probably getting a little sore also but she didn't hesitate and shortly thereafter I was deep in her pussy.  Well okay, I was in her pussy but with my cock I was not nearly as deep as the men who had fucked her earlier that day.  What I did notice though was how wet she was and of course it was because I was fucking her through Jay's cum.  Now me being me and loving being a cuckold, it always made me so much more excited to know that to get to my wife's pussy, I had to go through another man's cum.  In the days when we still fucked, it always made me cum so hard.

I actually started this a couple of weeks ago and, for a number of reasons, hadn't finished it which I will do now.   When I started, I knew my wife was being fucked right then but today I don't know if she is being fucked at this very moment or not.  What I do know is she has been with one of her boyfriends since last night because there is a possibility that this bf may be promoted in his company and have to move to another city.  So she spent the night with him in case it's their last time together.  He has been so excited about last night and today that he has been exchanging text messages for the last week with her planning all the things they were going to do.  Apparently he really enjoys my wife's enthusiasm and the way she works every way she can to please a man.  Of course when she's being fucked by a real man she gets a lot of pleasure out of it too which is clearly demonstrated by how she gets wet so fast and the noise she makes cumming over and over again.  It will be interesting, when she finally gets home to see if she's walking like she's sore.  I'm sure that he will have fucked her at least three times before she leaves and, since she took some of her toys along, it's a pretty good bet that he used some of her vibes and dildos on her.  In other words, the kind of fucking she only gets from some of her boyfriends and never got from me.

This is going to be the last one for wannabe cuckolds.  I think I've given you enough to think about and you just need to decide if you can handle it if other men take over your role as your wife's stud. leaving you in the dust as just another cuckold like me. A cuckold who loves the thought of his wife screaming in pleasure as a real man takes her pussy for his own.

Sissie

Masturbation

Just a quickie post.  I've mentioned several times that it's been over two and a half years since I had sex with my wife, other than a few mercy blowjobs she's given me.  Now my wife is not a dominant and has no interest in controlling my orgasms but I do limit them myself by allowing three orgasms for every time she fucks one of her boyfriends.  I figure three is about right because almost all of the times I've watched someone fuck her, she cums at least three times, if not more.  Thankfully her four boyfriends have kept her rather busy lately and just in the last week I had earned the right to masturbate nine times but had already used up three of them.  Fortunately for me, I'm accruing three more orgasms this evening.  Darn, I was going to buy a wide-screen TV this evening.  I guess the only thing getting wide tonight is her legs for him to slide in and fuck her.  Oh well, I can get a wide-screen TV tomorrow AND have nine orgasms in the bank.

Sissy Hypnosis

Warning:  In no way am I endorsing taking Ambien or any other medication other than as prescribed by your doctor.  The only reason I describe the use of Ambien as I do here is I was already taking it on my doctors orders.


I've seen some videos on blogs and other places online claiming to be hypnotic videos for sissy faggots.  These videos supposedly reinforce a sissy's natural desire to be used for sex by real men.  Okay, it's fun to get a little positive reinforcement now and then from men saying something like you could suck the chrome off a trailer hitch.  LOL  But most of these videos just seem to be clips of sissies getting a load blown down their throats or up their asses.  And even though it is fun to pretend, these videos are not something that will actually encourage me or any other sissy to go looking for a real man in need of sex. 

However, while is doesn't have videos, there is something online that is quite a bit of fun to play with and what's more, it's free.  Originally it was called the Hypnotizer 2000 but that has since been changed to The Virtual Hypnotist.  It's a complete hypnosis package in one download with different screens to watch while going under, subliminal word capability, along with prepared scripts for Inductions (hypnotizing), Deepeners to deepen the trance, Suggestions which are the instructions you receive and finally Wakeners to bring you out of it.  Along with those are complete sessions containing all of the elements for a specific purpose like the one to make you think you are a silver skinned robot. But the really great part of all this is you can write your own scripts, save them to the program and the program voice you choose will repeat the words.  So if you want to customize your own quit smoking program you can.  If you want to customize your own self confidence program you can.  If you want to customize your own sissy faggot, impotent, cuckold wimp program you can.  Just think of it, you can write your scripts for personal improvement or to literally fuck up your mind.   I'm sure you can guess which I prefer.  The following is a script I wrote but what you need to remember is each one of these sections is repeated in the script about 10 times.

<speak> \Pau=5000\
<speak> You want to make your wife happy...very happy...
<speak> what makes your wife happy is being fucked by men...
<speak> you are not a real man so being fucked by you does not make her happy.
<speak> she wants to be fucked by someone with a man cock...
<speak> you have a baby cock... a tiny little boys cock
<speak> Your wife does not want to be fucked by you...it does not make her happy
<speak> You want to make your wife happy...very happy...
<speak> You want to make your wife happy...very happy...
<speak> very happy...
<speak> very happy...
<speak> very happy...
<speak> very happy...
<speak> what makes your wife happy is being fucked by men...
<speak> the more men who fuck her the happier she is...
<speak> you want her to be very happy and be fucked by lots of men.
<speak> \Pau=1000\

After that sections is this:
<speak> \Pau=3000\
<speak> Your wife wants you to be happy...very happy...
<speak> the thing that makes you happiest is humiliation...
<speak> the more you are humiliated the happier you are...
<speak> you are humiliated by being a cuckold...
<speak> this makes you happy...
<speak> humiliation makes you happy...
<speak> the more your wife cuckolds you the more men she fucks the happier you are...
<speak> you are humiliated because your wife only fucks real men and you are not a real man...
<speak> this makes you happy...
<speak> humiliation makes you happy...
<speak> you are humiliated when you think about a man coming in your wife...
<speak> the more men that come in your wife the more humiliated you are...
<speak> you are humiliated when you think about your wife coming while being fucked by a man...
<speak> the more your wife comes from men the more humiliated you are...
<speak> this makes you happy...
<speak> humiliation makes you happy...
<speak> you are humiliated because you are not man enough to fuck your wife...
<speak> you are not a man at all...you are a sissy...
<speak> you are humiliated because you are a sissy...
<speak> this makes you happy...
<speak> humiliation makes you happy...
<speak> your tiny baby cock is too small to fuck your wife with...
<speak> you are humiliated by your baby dick...humiliated because little boys have more cock than you...
<speak> this makes you happy...
<speak> humiliation makes you happy...
<speak> sissies suck cocks
<speak> thinking about sucking cocks makes you a sissy...
<speak> every time you think about sucking a cock you are humiliated...
<speak> the more you think about sucking cocks the more the humiliation...
<speak> this makes you happy...
<speak> humiliation makes you happy...
<speak> sissies are fucked in their ass by real men...
<speak> thinking about a real man fucking your ass makes you a sissy...
<speak> the more you think about being fucked in the ass the more humiliated you are...
<speak> this makes you happy...
<speak> humiliation makes you happy...
<speak> \Pau=1000\
<speak> you are a cuckold...that is humiliating
<speak> this makes you happy
<speak> your wife only fucks real men...you are not a real man...that is humiliating
<speak> you become happier...
<speak> men come in your wifes pussy...that is humiliating
<speak> you become even happier
<speak> your wife comes being fucked by men...that is humiliating
<speak> you are happier
<speak> you are not man enough to fuck your wife...you are not a man at all...that is humiliating...
<speak> your wife wants to fuck real men not you....that is humiliating
<speak> happier...
<speak> your tiny dick is not big enough to fuck a woman...that is humiliating...
<speak> happier...
<speak> you are a sissy...that is humiliating...
<speak> happier
<speak> you think about sucking cocks because you love sucking cocks...that is humiliating...
<speak> happier and happier...
<speak> you think about a man fucking your ass because sissies get ass fucked...that is humiliating...
<speak> the more you are humiliated the happier you are
<speak> humiliated...
<speak> happy...
<speak> humiliated...
<speak> happy...
<speak> humiliated...
<speak> happy...
<speak> humiliated...
<speak> the more humiliation you feel the more happiness and joy you feel
<speak> \Pau=1000\

Note that words like cumming need to be spelled correctly as coming.

Now obviously if these really worked it would screw up your mind to no end, especially if you listened to them night after night after night.  But we know don't we that some hypnosis program you find online for free isn't going to work, right?  I mean if I take my prescription for Ambien which is a hypnotic and play this script every night it's not going to affect me in any way is it?  No way!  Just because at this very moment as I write this my wife is with one of her boyfriends whose cock is sliding in and out of her plus she has a date to fuck another boyfriend tomorrow afternoon and I have one of my very, very, very rare erections along with being almost giddily happy, it doesn't mean this program works does it.  It isn't possible!  Just because I haven't been able to get it up and keep it up enough to fuck her since July of 2008 doesn't mean anything does it?  Of course not!

The Virtual Hypnotist can be found online at http://vhypno.sourceforge.net/ but use it at your own risk.  You could end up a sissy faggot like me who only gets erections when a real man is fucking and cumming in my wife.  Nah, that really couldn't happen could it?<wink, wink>

For Wannabe Cuckolds - Part 3

I've chatted with a number of people online about wanting their wives to cuckold them but they either didn't know how to go about achieving it or were getting "resistance" from the wife.  Obviously I don't know about other wives but I can tell what worked on mine.  In parts one and two I talked about the threesome's I had set up but they didn't happen by just coming home one day and saying, "Surprise honey, me and another guy are going to fuck you tonight."  What had actually gone on was a lot of bedroom talk during sex about setting up a threesome and gradually making the talk more and more, for lack of a better term, real.  In other words, going from fantasy talk about "what if" and "who with" to talking about how I was going to do it and set it up.  That first time I don't think she really believed it was happening until she was sitting on the bed with a cock in each hand.  And of course one thing she noticed was the difference in size.  In her left hand, I was just slightly over 5" (at the time) and slightly bigger around than a normal prescription pill bottle.  In her right hand, John was 8.75 inches long and almost as big around as a Coke can.  I am absolutely serious about his size as he had fucked me a couple of times and I had sucked his cock three time.  I can "deep throat" a normal size 8" cock but all of the times I sucked John's cock, I could get less than half of it in my mouth.  So anyway she is sitting there with my little cock in one hand, John's monster in the other hand and I heard her whisper, "Oh My God!"  When he finally started fucking her, she was wide eyed and mouth hanging open.  She had been sucking my cock when John slid in but as he fucked her, she seem to drift off into La La Land losing interest in sucking me.  LOL  I think she was still out there somewhere when I fucked her because she barely reacted to me the entire time I was pumping in and out.  On the way home, she was all smiles with an occasional soft, "I can't believe that," which changed to, "I can't believe I did that," which finally morphed into her looking at me asking excitedly, "Can we do it again?"  So you can see that we slowly worked up from just bedroom talk to get her used to the idea to the point where she offered no resistance to what was, as far as I know, only the third cock she had since our marriage.  I say third because early on we had an pretty big argument and while I was sleeping that day (I worked midnight shift) she had gone out to fuck an old boyfriend for some "getting closure with him/I'll show you how mad I am sex"  which I didn't find out about for several years.  But this had been different.  She had, with my permission, had her "brains fucked out" by a cock that went deeper and stretched her pussy wider than anything ever had before.  A cock that made her realize that sex could be a lot better than my slightly less than average size cock could provide.  It took a while to set up that second threesome because I wanted people we could trust and I finally settled on Roy and Mike as I previously talked about which of course led to her steady fucking of Roy for several months.  One thing I had not thought of until just today was, during the threesome, Roy kept remarking about how tight my wife's pussy was.  I thought at the time he was remarking about how lucky I was to have a wife that tight but it finally dawned on me later that he was saying if she was that tight after being married the length of time we had, I must have a fairly small cock.  Remember that this threesome I only watched and did not undress but I will say Roy was pretty impressive.  Not in John's league but a  respectable 7.5 to 8" although a fairly normal thickness.  But as you can see by setting up these threesomes, she had found out a couple of things.  First that there were men and cocks who were bigger, could last a lot longer and recover a lot quicker than me.  The second thing she found out was, she liked fucking those men!  So there is something else for prospective cucks to look at.  Do you really want your wife to find out if there are men out there that can please her better than you?  Because you can bet that no matter how good you are in bed, she will meet someone who will "ring her chimes" in a different and better way than you.

(This paragraph was partially deleted by accident so I will rewrite it and insert it back in later.  Please check back)

One thing that occurred around this same time was I switched jobs.  I had been working out of town but I left that company and went to work for one where I would be at home.  However, if you think this caused her to stop or even slow down meeting men, you're wrong.  The problem was, being a junior employee at my new company, I was working anywhere from 1pm - 9:30pm to 3pm-11:30pm with weekdays off while the wife was still working 8am-4:30pm with weekends off.  So three days a week she had usually at least 5 hours to meet someone for a fuck and weekends she had eight hours.  If anything, I really think her frequency increased as by this time she had a series of regular fuck buddies she would see and cut down on the number of new men to probably 30-40 the second year.  Also there were some incidences that occurred, a couple of funny ones, one sad, one pissing me off, and a few kind of strange along with the exciting ones.

One young man had struck up a conversation with my wife through the adult site and was very polite or as she described him, "just so sweet."  In fact, he was sweet enough that my wife decided to violate her "got to be over 35 or no fuckee" policy (he said he was 18, I think he was probably 16 or 17).  They met at a neutral place for a Coke and finding she liked him, she followed him to his place or rather his parents place.  What she found was he still lived at home and his parents were out of town.  So there she was in his bedroom and she actually had to show him where to put his hands and what to do step by step.  Yep, he was a virgin.  She said the first time he barely got his cock buried in her pussy before he was cumming although she said he was satisfactory the second time.  She saw him four or five times after that whenever his parents were gone for a weekend and I think she kind of considered him a teaching project.  She did say that by the last time she saw him, he had gotten to be a better than average lover.  Another amusing thing was another guy she met through the website.  When they met for coffee she thought he looked familiar and he said the same about her.  After they had fucked, he used a very strange word as an exclamation about how good she was.  She had only heard one person ever use that word so she looked up at him and asked, "Bobby?"  It turned out that they had worked together several years before that but at the time he had a beard and she had longer, different color hair.  He said that when they worked together, he always had the hots for her and fantasized about fucking her all the time.  Bobby added that if he had known then how good she was in bed, he would have gone for it.  She laughed and told him that, although she didn't play around back then, she probably would have fucked him since she always thought he was cute.  The sad was another man who was outside her normal age bracket except he was a widower in his mid 70's although to hear her tell it he looked 50's including riding a Harley.  She said he was a real gentleman, considerate and was a great lover with the aid of the blue pill.  Normally they would meet one or two times a month and in between exchange a few rather explicit e-mails.  He had gone home over the holidays and when she hadn't heard from him in a few weeks, she sent him a note (fortunately just friendly, not naughty).  A few days later she got a message back from his daughter that he had passed away while riding his Harley.  The daughter said that he had been very fond of my wife and she thanked her for making him happy.   The pissed off was due to what would have been a blow to any one's ego.  For a three month period, I had a shift that ended at 7pm so I was actually getting home in time for something besides dinner and bedtime (for sleep).  The previous week and a half had seemed like all of her lovers were horny and she had fucked one or another of them for 11 days in a row.  I was on my first break at work and was talking to her before she left work.  I told her I would be home by 7:30pm and to not plan anything with anyone except me to which she agreed.  However on my last break she was all excited and told me that Bill was in town, wanted her to spend the night with him and she asked would I mind if she did.  Now Bill was the male half of that first couple she met.  He had been an executive with a company in town but had gotten a promotion and had been transferred over a year earlier.  He was back in town for a meeting, staying at a $500 a night resort nearby and since his old partner was no longer available, he called my wife.  So here she is asking me if I mind her going up to see Bill for the night since she hadn't seen him in a long time.  Of course any plans we had made were gone right out of her mind.  Although I was quite pissed I did manage to hide it for that moment and told her to go ahead.  Of course that should tell you something about my prowess (or lack of it) in bed when thoughts of what we had planned for the evening were replaced by thoughts of spending the night with Bill the minute he asked her.  It wasn't until she got home the next morning that she realized how pissed I really was.  Her comment was, "I should have said no if I didn't want her to go."  My reply was, "We had something planned so you shouldn't have even put me in that position by asking."  No answer to that one.   There was one consequence of this even though I don't think she has ever realized it.  After that happened, I have rarely initiated sex between the two of us.  I mean why should I bother planning something if there is a chance it could get shot down.  So there is something else to think about for wannabe's.  Are you ready to spend the night angry, tossing and turning because she bailed on you and is spending the night with someone else.

End of Part 3 - I was going to make this the last part of this particular topic but there is more to say so Part 4 to follow.

For Wannabe Cuckolds - Part 2

In part one, I mentioned that demon that can be let loose when a wife gets a taste of cock belonging to someone else besides hubby. 

I've read somewhere that sex with someone new releases a type of chemical in the brain that makes being fucked by that new person more exciting.  I mean think about it.  She's getting fucked, something she's done many times in your marriage but there is something intoxicating about that same act with a new partner.  It's that chemical causing the intoxication, that drug like high.  And we know that different people react differently to drugs.  Some can do it once, walk away and never really be interested in it again.  Others can "chip" occasionally without becoming addicted while some will become hopelessly addicted after two or three (and sometimes only one) times.  That's what happened to my wife.  She went from two threesomes spaced over 1 year into full blown addiction. This is about how she got there. 

I had set up a threesome with me and a friend to fulfill a fantasy for her of being fucked by two men.  It didn't hurt that the other person was WELL hung (8 3/4 and very thick) and that she was thoroughly fucked when we went home.  Then about a year later, I set up another threesome, this time with two men (Roy and Mike) with me watching.  The two men had done several threesomes like this and were able to tag team fuck her into total exhaustion.  I just about had to help her to the car she was so tired.  This was the point where things changed.  Let me interject that I was working out of town at the time, had been for quite a while, would be for the foreseeable future and only got home on the weekends.  On a Friday, during one of our daily calls I could tell she wanted to ask something but was stalling until she finally asked would I mind if she visited Roy the next week.  It seems Roy had called wanting to see her again.  (A note here that we discovered when we got to Roy's house for that threesome Roy only lived about a five to ten minute drive from my wife's office depending on traffic.)  It was nice that she was asking me even though she knew I wouldn't say no and I didn't but this was also far different from a couple of threesomes to fulfill fantasies.  This was my wife going to a man's house, letting him undress her, sucking his cock and fucking him in his bed.  This was not a fantasy that the two of us would be sharing, this was going to be her and a man while I wasn't there.  And the way she talked, it wasn't a one time thing.  This was going to be an affair!  The next Tuesday afternoon she called as she was leaving work at 4:30 to let me know she was going to Roy's house.  Before someone thinks she was rubbing it in, we had always let each other know where we were if we were not going straight home.  Anyway, I figured, five minutes out of the parking lot, ten minutes to get there, five minutes to get inside and at most, ten to fifteen minutes of foreplay that first time.  This would mean that by 5:05 that afternoon Roy was fucking my wife again but this time I three hundred miles away.  I can't really describe how I felt at that moment other than to say I was confused, humiliated, a little sick at my stomach, envious (she was fucking and I wasn't) and yes, at little turned on.  I don't think it would have made as much impact had it not been for the fact that I had been in Roy's bedroom during the threesome so I didn't have to imagine what it looked like.  I knew how it looked when Roy drove his larger 8" cock deep into her, how she would slam her hips up at him to meet his thrusts, how she would lay her head down on her arms and then suddenly throw it back and scream as Roy fucked her doggie style.  About 7:00 she called me to tell me she was home and her voice was like a kick in the balls.  I can only describe it as a soft, "I am so well fucked and satisfied" voice if that makes any sense.  A voice I had never heard from her after we had fucked.  Roy fucked her twice two days that week and I will admit to having a little difficulty getting it up when I got home that weekend knowing I was going to be compared to Roy and knowing I probably wasn't going to "measure" up in more ways than one.  At first our agreement was this was just a couple of times a week but soon she was asking for three, then four and occasionally five or more times a week.  The five or more occurred when she started to spend one or two nights a month with him because Roy had a pretty good recovery rate.  When she did spend the night, he would fuck her at the normal time when she got off work, that night when they went to bed and in the morning before she left for work.  It got to the point where Roy was her steady fuck and I was the guy she fucked once or maybe twice a week on the side.  Even the two weeks I was home for vacation she stopped by Roy's several times. 

At this point let me tell some of the things that happened while she was having her affair with Roy.  One evening when Roy wasn't going to be home until after 6:00 she went home, changed into a corset, stockings and that same faux fur coat (this was the first time she wore it for sex).  That plus heels was all she wore to drive 10 miles back to Roy's house and let it open just inside the door of the house.  According to her, Roy fucked her five feet inside the door when he saw what she was wearing.   Another time she was giving me a blowjob and she didn't back off when I started cumming, swallowing my cum instead.  This was something she had never done before and when I asked, she told me she had been doing it for Roy so she felt she should do it for me!  Wow, thanks.  Another time she mentioned something about how much Roy would cum.  I asked about seeing it inside the condom and she said they hadn't used condoms in several months.  One day they were in a real hurry and didn't think of the condom until it was too late so they just quit using them.  What I realized then was, on occasion, I had fucked her right after she left Roy and what I had put down to her being really wet was actually his cum.  I had gotten sloppy seconds...I had been fucking my wife through another man's cum. 

So there is more for you wannabe cucks to think about.  Do you want to take the chance that someone else will be your wife's main source of cock?  Do you want to lay in bed thinking about her spending the night with another man?  Do you want to fuck her using someone a man's cum for lube?  Do you want her comparing you to her boyfriend as you fuck her?  All of these are questions you need to ask yourself before she takes that first cock.  Can you really handle being a cuckold and basically thought of by her boyfriends as a wimp?

End of part 2 - Part 3 to follow

For Wannabe Cuckolds - Part 1

Since I belong to a number of cuckolding groups, I see a lot of men and sissies talking about wanting to be cuckolded.  While I'm sure many of these people are sincere in their desire, I can't help but wonder if they really know what they are getting into wanting their wives to fuck other men.  Do they know the demon they may be turning loose within their wives and are they prepared for it?

For instance, my wife left here a while ago wearing a green velvet dress and her faux fur coat.  The thing is, under the green velvet dress she was wearing black stockings, black garter belt,  black bra and a black slip.  Now if you notice, I didn't mention panties although she had a black pair.  They were folded up and slipped down inside her purse. Also I fastened the garter belt for her and hooked the stockings to it.  Why all of this?  Because today she had a date with one of her boyfriends; date being a nice way of saying she went over to his apartment so she could get fucked a couple of times by a real man.  A man with a nice size cock; a man with stamina enough to last more than a minute or two before premature ejaculation like me when I could still fuck her.  A man who can please her and loves to fuck her based on the text messages they've been sending back and forth for the last three days.  I just looked at the clock and based on the time she left, as I write this his cock is sliding in and out of my wife, fucking her to the kind of orgasms I've never been able to give her.  I know she loves being fucked by him also since she's been giddy as a schoolgirl since they made the date.  He had been out of town over the holidays and they haven't fucked in almost a month so I would imagine she's screaming quite loud (yes she's a screamer) as she cums.  She has said that he is usually good for two times but since they've been apart for so long, I wonder if he will be good for three today.  Or maybe he will get one of her absolutely fantastic blow jobs in place of one fuck.  Of course as many cocks as she has sucked, she should be good at it.  Hell, one of her boyfriends was the first to get her to swallow and then she told me that since she did it for him, she might as well do it for me, her husband also.  So if she gives him a blow job today, that's less cum that she will have in her pussy (that's why the panties in her purse, so she doesn't leak cum on the way home).

She also has a date with another boyfriend on Monday.  This is the man she has been fucking the longest of anyone.  They've been getting together for at least five or six years and they know exactly what each other likes.  Unlike today's sex when they will talk a little, fuck for a while, talk some more and they a final fuck before they call it a day, Monday will just be down and dirty sex.  Or to say it another way, today is more about lovemaking while Monday will be about fucking.  But as long as it involves a real man's cock in her pussy, my wife doesn't care which it is.

So wannabe cuckolds, think about it.  Do you want the fantasy of your wife fucking other men or the reality? Do you want to help your wife dress so that she can go spread her legs for another man to fuck her?  Do you really want her to learn things from other men that may end up with you looking like me, a cuckolded wimp who is lousy in bed?  So bad in fact that she hasn't even wanted me inside her for over 2 1/2 years.  Do you want to end up someone who, the closest they come to regular sex is masturbation?  The closest you come to penetration with a cock is when one of her lovers decides he wants to make sure you understand how things are by fucking your ass after he's fucked your wife?  Do you wannabes really want that for yourself.

More to cum for you who are already cuckolds like me and for the wannabes.  End of part 1