Thank You Kay Milton

 Kay Milton was an electric bondage model from a few years back.  In these pictures (I had to remove the pictures because of the new policy) you can see the large electrode balls on the post that was placed in her pussy.  This along with the electrodes attached to her nipples were what applied electricity to her body.  Now what happens when power turns on is every muscle in her vagina clamps down due to the electrical stimulation along with her nipples being tormented by the wires there.  As it continues it also begins to affect the nerves controlling pleasure like below where Kay is apparently in the throws of a massive orgasm.  I've seen a lot of videos from the web site Wired Pussy and they show a lot of women going through orgasms induced by electricity.  So this got me to thinking, always a dangerous thing.

What it got me to thinking about is the fact that I have a TENS unit.  That is a Transcutaneous Electrical Nerve Stimulation unit and it's used with muscles and joints that are painful to alleviate some of the pain.  It has two channels (volume knobs) to apply voltage by means four wires and pads.  Now normally you just simply apply the four pads to the corners of what ever area you want to cover.  You can set it to vary which means it goes from nothing to high and back to nothing on two of the pads, the doing the same thing with the other two pads.  You can set it to burst mode which simply means that every couple of seconds it applies a full power blast in a real short pulse.  It's sort of like getting hit with a bat but less pain.  Or you can apply a constant power with no changes.  Also adjustable is the number of cycles per second.  You can go from several hundred cycles per second down to 1 or 2 cps.  However the body is especially sensitive to 60 cps, the same as is in your wall plug of the light switch in your room, just lower voltage, but 60 cps can be very painful.  Now, I've mentioned that I haven't had an erection in quite some time and it's been very difficult to orgasm.  So I decided to try out my TENS unit to see what would happen and if I could induce an orgasm that way.  I applied one pad to my asshole and the other lead on that channel to the top of my little cock at the base.  I applied another to the area right over my prostate with the corresponding lead to the underside of the glans.  I turned them on low and felt a little tickle but that was about it.  As I adjusted the volume, the feelings intensified and at 400 cycles, it began to feel like a beehive in my ass and cock.  As I began adjusting down, I found for me that around 85-100 cycles felt very good.  Getting down to 60 cycles was actually painful.  I spent time swiching from vary to burst to constant over and over again.  I kept it at 60 cycles and, while painful, it was beginning to be enjoyable also.  As pleasure would build, I would up the "volume" on both knobs which would start me all over again with just pain until the pleasure started building again.  I did this all the way up to max volume.  Now at this point, I might add, my cock was as hard as it's been in a number of years.  I could feel it building and building but it didn't seem I would ever get there when the orgasm hit like a hurricane.  I'm talking massive, roll your eyes up, body shaking orgasm!  It was painful, it was pleasurable and it seemed just to keep going.  Even though I was cumming, remember what I said about muscles locking down,  Well what ever it is that allows ejaculation was spasmed  so even though I was cumming, I wasn't ejaculating,  Finally when I couldn't take any more, I turned it off and started shooting cum.  The only thing I can say about an electric orgasm is WOW.   So if you want to try it, usually you can find a used TENS unit on e-bay for a few dollars.  One other advantage of this is, if used long enough, when the power is turned off finally, you will find you have a very numb cock which can last for a little while.  Almost feels like someone shot Novocaine in it.

 I will add this word of warning though.  Do not under any circumstances allow electricity to flow across the chest and over the heart.  Never, never, never.  This can be Fatal!

Reasons Why Your Wife Does Not See You As A Man

She asks your advice on the best shave cream to use on her legs.  You simply take her by the hand, lead her into the bathroom and Nair her legs while doing yours!

She asks your advice on what to wear and how to do her makeup when she has a date with one of her lovers.

She asks you to drop her off at a lover's house so they can go on a five day road trip together.  And you do.

She has seen you deep throat an eight inch cock without gagging.

Her lovers consider her a world class cocksucker and more than one of them has told her you are almost as good at sucking cocks as she is.

She's out of maxi-pads/tampons so she goes into your drawer to get some of yours to slip in her purse.

She borrows stockings from you to wear for a date.

She has three shades of most everything in her makeup kit.  You have fifteen.

When your wife decides she has nothing to wear, she doesn't go shopping, she raids your closet.

She signs you up for a fancy department store credit card in the name of Barbara and your name is Bob.

She has given you a hand job while one of her lovers fucked you in the ass.

She doesn't worry about the toilet seat being up since you have been sitting down to pee for years.

At a gang bang, you sit quietly and patiently in the corner of the room, fully dressed waiting for all the real men to finish fucking her so you can drive her home.

Sometimes she hurries home after fucking a man because she knows you consider sloppy seconds as a treat.

A Sissy Faggot Should Always Land On Her Back With Her Legs Spread

Random Thoughts About Nothing Specific

Just some silly things that enter my warped, perverted, sissy brain.

Who was the first person to call it a "blow" job.  I mean I've sucked a cock hundreds of times but, other than just using the term, I've never truly blown one.

OK, I admit I have always had a castration fetish so that may influence this.  But when you're getting breast implants, why don't you go ahead and have the doctor do the big emasculating "double snip" while you're on the table.  I mean it's not like some random woman is going to come running up to you and say, "I love your D cup breasts, please father my child." Sure, I know some who get implants still want to maintain erections for posing in porn photos but with today's medications, it's not like you really need balls to get your cock hard.

It's amazing how many straight men aren't really straight.  Or maybe they are and are just curious what it's like to fuck a sissy.  It's when they come back for a second or third time that you really wonder.  Is it because they are bi, hiding the fact they are gay, or because I'm just one hell of a fuck.  I like to think it's because I'm one hell of a fuck.

A lot of T-girl, sissy porn comes from Brasil but I've noticed there seems to be some coming from Russia these days.  Kind of makes you wonder if the Russian Mafia is involved which starts a little fantasy.  Can't you just see a pretty sissy in Moscow and the Mafia shows up saying (insert Russian accent), "You are pretty boy.  We cut off balls, give you big tits, take pictures of you sucking and fucking lots of men.  We make lots of money."

Why do men get turned on by a woman licking another woman's pussy?  And do women have the same fantasy about men sucking cocks?  I've watched my wife eat pussy and it didn't turn me on but then I'm not a man. What did turn me on was being humiliated by the other woman's husband fucking my wife at the same time while I sat there waiting for them to finish so I could drive my wife home.

Why would people think it's humiliating for a sissy eating cream pie left in the sissy's wife by her lover.  Many of us sissies have swallowed more than one load of cum and, being married, we've probably eaten our wife's pussy.  I mean I would gladly suck any of her lovers, swallowing every drop of cum before licking my wife's clit.  If he fucks her, fills her with cum before they want me to eat the pie, all that's doing is putting it all in one step and keeping my jaw from getting quite so tired.

Should a sissy maid have any other purpose than to serve her wife and her wife's lovers?  NO MATTER how many lovers the wife chooses?

Why is it that someone who starts crossdressing automatically thinks they have to look like a 13 year old girl or a LA streetwalker.  Hey, if you can pass for a teen girl go ahead but as far as a hooker goes, I would rather look like a five hundred dollar call girl than a twenty dollar whore.  Unless the guy wants me to look like a twenty dollar whore.  Then I'm one trashy fucking slut!

Burdizzo, scalpel, chemicals, bands?  Decisions, decisions.  I went with scalpel.

I once was corresponding with a woman who told me that size really doesn't matter all that much because beyond a certain depth in her, a women can't tell how big a man is.  Right, tell me another one.  I've seen my wife scream through too many orgasms while being fucked by too many well hung men to believe that BS.

If a woman marries a wimp sissy, should she cuckold him on their wedding night or wait until the honeymoon is over?

Which is more humiliating for a married sissy faggot.  Sucking her lover's cock in front of her, taking her lover's cock up the ass in front of her or watching a man/men fuck her. 

Should you swallow on the first date?

Implants or take enough hormones to put tits on a brick?  I go with the second.

The first "cup" was used in hockey in the 1874.  The first helmet in 1974.  This just goes to show you that men are more concerned with their cock and balls than their brains.  If there were a sissy faggot hockey league, helmets and face masks would have been used long ago.  After all, a girl has to protect her looks.  But I doubt if there would ever be a sissy faggot league.  We would all want to wear the skimpy outfits/tights and figure skate.

Length or width for a sissy.  I've been fucked by slender dicks and fat dicks. I like fat dicks because they stretch my ass which includes a tiny amount of pain.  But I did have one guy with a long slender dick who was very good.  He was quite an enjoyable fuck.

Should a wife allow her husband to be present the first time she cuckolds him?  Or should she make him stay home so that he can only imagine what's happening and how it looks as a real man claims her pussy.

A Very Close Call

I almost had to try and fuck a woman!  But thankfully my streak going on almost five years without fucking my wife (or any woman) is still intact.  I've written a lot about my wife/her lovers and how she rarely goes very long without being fucked silly by one of them.  However, due to scheduling conflicts and such, she had been going through quite a dry spell because of lovers being extra busy with work, lovers being out of town, family visiting and such.  She had been getting a little snippy and it was obvious she was getting to the point that her larger dildos and vibrators were not cutting it any more.  She was horny!  Horny enough to start talking about getting the doctor to give me a prescription for Viagra.  Now if she is looking at me as a male sex partner, she has to be getting really horny.  After all, I don't think she's thought of me as a male since the first time she watched me slide my red lips down her lovers cock and definitely not since she watched me really enjoy one of her lovers fucking my ass.  Plus a small cock and usually cumming within two minutes doesn't make me a prime candidate for a sexual partner, even if I wanted to.  Oh don't get me wrong, sex is very pleasurable and the feeling of being/cumming inside a woman is wonderful.  If you are a man.  I'm not.  As I've talked about before, I'm not a man.  I'm a wimp, a sissy, a faggot, a willing cuckold.  I want women viewing me as less than a man, I like wearing women's clothing, I like sucking cocks and/or being fucked in the ass and I enjoy having my wife leave me at home while she spreads her legs for a real man.  I don't want Viagra to give me an erection, I want a limp cock that barely twitches when I am really turned on. The only cocks I want sliding into anything around me would be getting to watch while someone slides a cock into my wife or a cock sliding between my lips/up my ass.  Anyway, my wife had actually gone by my doctor's office to get the prescription but it hadn't been filled yet when she got a call from one of her boyfriends wanting to get together for some hot sex.  This particular boyfriend is the one she's been fucking the longest, somewhere around eight years.  She was out of the house so fast it would have made your head swim.  The only thing that slowed her down at all was doing her makeup.  Normally she wears a garterbelt and stockings for this lover because he likes it but I'm pretty sure all she was wearing when she left the house was her dress and two shoes.  When she finally got home, she was dreamy all evening and has been smiling the last couple of days.  Jim is always man enough to fuck her twice but I wonder if he could have managed three this time?  I would laughingly say that I almost felt sorry for him as horny as she was but I really thank him because he kept me from having to pretend to be a man.  So I'm still a wimp, limped dick, useless sissy faggot and cuckold.  Thankfully!

A Constant Reminder You Are A Cuckold

For the cuckolds among us does your wife keep something which constantly reminds you of your status as a cuckold.  Mine does.  First of all, she has her photo album/memory book/scrap book.  It's one of those that is supposed to be a photo album and you can add pages to it until it gets full.  Then you simply screw in another peg into the existing peg and you have double the space.  Add two pegs and it's triple the space.  It sits on her dresser and anytime she's feeling sentimental, she looks through it.  It's amazing some of the things she keeps in there.  First, on the cover is a picture of her being double penetrated, eight inches in her pussy and six in her mouth.   Many of the earlier items are details she wrote about her meetings which she would copy into the computer, print out and place in her book.  Some are articles she wrote for the online magazine of the sex site she advertised on.  Articles about how great another member of the site was when they got together and how he fucked her silly. Others are e-mails from various lovers about their get togethers...some of those are romantic and sweet while others get very very graphic.  She has other things along that line such as receipts, napkins and coasters from motels, restaurants and bars, usually with a guy's name on it.  In some cases whatever she has is blank but most of them have a man's name on them.  She has the receipts from every time she's spent the night or nights in a motel with a man, his name and the date/dates.  Also included are tags off of gifts that men have bought her including jewelry and such.  Finally there are the pictures.  There's at least one from every gang bang she's done except one where no one had a camera.  She could have called me for a camera as I wasn't but about five miles away but I don't think she wanted me to see how many were at that gang bang or else she didn't want the sissy me exposed to someone who could have been hateful/dangerous.  I really do think she was looking out for me that time.  There are also photos of her in various stages of undress plus one of her in her corset, stockings, boots and fur coat.  That's all she wore to drive across town to meet her lover that day.  Also she has photos of her in the act with many of her lovers.  But I guess the one thing that reminds me most of my cuckold status is an 8x10 framed portrait of my wife taken in a local park.  It's a beautiful portrait with just perfect lighting and composition and it sits also on her dresser.  This park has some really nice little cabin like structures so you could get in out of the rain if needed.  Three walls were solid and the fourth wall had an open air window and a door. The door and window was just that, an opening in the wall with nothing to close.  The guy she was with is a professional photographer and the scene he set up was wonderful.  They has hung around the park until no one else was there.  It was in the evening as the sun was going down because he wanted to take advantage of that natural light and he filled in with a flash.  He set up his camera on a tripod and had my wife pose with here arms folded on the bottom window sill and her chin resting on her hands.  She has this enigmatic, Mona Lisa type smile on her face and in the portrait, he (the photographer) is standing behind her with both arms stretched around her and his hands resting on the window sill beside her arms.  You really have to look close to see the remote control he used to take the picture in his hand.  It simply looks like two people looking out a window.  What you can't see in the photo is that my wife's skirt was up over her waist, her panties were in her purse and he had his cock buried in her pussy.  Yes, my wife has a portrait of herself being fucked on her dresser that I see every day along with her "Fucking Memories" scrapbook.  So even when I'm not thinking about the fact I've been cuckolded by all those men, I'm being reminded of it.  And I love it!!!!!

Sissie

How To Ruin Your Wife (For sex with you that is)

A little back story first.  From what she will admit to, I was the third person ever to fuck my wife.  The guy she had been dating broke up with her after the second time he fucked her since all he wanted was her cherry.  According to her description he was about 6 inches and normal thickness.  The second guy she fucked was again about 6 inches but she did say he was kind of thick.  However, he was a complete asshole and she only fucked him 4 times before she broke up with him.  Then she met me although I think there was another guy in there but she's never admitted it because she knows I couldn't stand him.  Now on a really good day when I was at my best, I probably measured out at about 5 1/2 inches and maybe a little
thicker than normal (that's based on experience from the different cocks I've sucked).  So we went along for a couple of years with her getting what she could from my efforts and if you've read other entries you know I have a premature ejaculation problem.  Therefore we started to include toys into our sex life with some dildos that were longer than me.  I found out by accident that talking about someone else fucking her when I used the dildo really got her going and gave her some great orgasms.  It seemed the more I talked about it, the harder she would cum.  I also found out about the same time that somewhere a few months after we were married, she had fucked her first boyfriend.  This was her first boyfriend when she was in something like the 7th or 8th grade and she had wanted to fuck him since she was barely a teen.  Again when she finally told me about it, she described him as about 6 1/2 to 7 inches and slender.  So here we are with her having been fucked by four or maybe five different but fairly similar sized cocks.  There is also a slight possibility that there was a sixth but, if there was, she will never admit it.

Now, from earlier blog entries you know that I'm on the rainbow side of bisexual and a sissy also.  That's where I found the cock that "ruined my wife" so to speak.  It was just before computers started coming down in price so not everyone had access to the internet.  I had an ad in a magazine called TV/TS Chronicle looking for men or couples interested in a sissy like me.  I was working out of town as I mentioned in other entries and was contacted by a guy.  He was bi, could act as male or sissy, his wife was a dominant cuckoldress and he was switch, dominant or submissive.  What he wanted from me though was to meet me, him as male, me as a sissy in full drag the way you would go to a woman's apartment for sex.  I met both of them for dinner at a restaurant first and we got along really well.  I thought at first that she would be there to watch but she was going to be out of town the day he was meeting me.  However, she assured me that she would call me and I could tell her all about it. She did and it was such a surreal but wonderful conversation talking to her about having sex with her husband.  What I found out though when we met at my apartment is he is huge!  You can go back and look at my entry on penis size to see just how big John is but let me put it this way.  I can take every inch of a normal eight inch cock and deep throat it or take it in my ass with a little pain.  When I sucked John's cock I could only get about half of it in my mouth, even trying to force my head forward didn't work.  When he slid it into my ass the first time, even though I had spent the morning working my ass with a dildo and had used a vaginal cream syringe filled with KY to lube my ass, it still hurt.  And I'm not talking about a twinge of pain, I'm talking about taking your breath away, tears in your eyes, begging him to hold still for a minute type of pain.  At it's widest point, John is about the size of a Coca-Cola can and about an eighth of an inch short of nine inches.

As I said earlier, I had been telling my wife that I was going to get someone to fuck her whenever we used the dildo and it always seemed to really light a fire in her.  So I told her that I had it all arraigned and that she was going to get fucked very soon.  What we had set up was this.  John had to make a business trip to visit a big customer in a city about 150 miles from us but since he had to drive through our town, he was going to stop for a couple of days and see some smaller clients.  So the night we had set this up, I had my wife dress nicely with a garterbelt, stockings and heels, no panties or bra and one of her nice cocktail dresses over it all before we drove downtown to the hotel where John was staying.  As we went up the elevator and walked down the hall I could see a little smile on my wife's face.  I had her stand where she couldn't see in the room and knocked on the door.  It was when the door was opened from inside that her eyes went wide, her mouth dropped open and she realized that I had not set up a romantic evening for the two of us but there was indeed a man inside the room. John opened the door and, as we had talked about, he ducked back into the bathroom.  I led my wife into the room and asked her if she was sure she wanted to do this.  She didn't say anything but did nod her head up and down emphatically.  I had her take off her dress and then took the two leather cuffs and placed them on her wrists before sitting her down on the bed and blindfolding her with a wool lined leather blindfold.  It was this point where I called John to come out and he sat down beside her while I sat on the other side.  At first her hands were in her lap while we took turns kissing her and then began playing with her nipples.  When we pulled her legs apart, she reached over with each hand and grabbed us.  Her hand of course wrapped easily around me but her hand didn't even come close to going around John's cock.  She squeezed me and then I could see her squeeze John's cock, she squeezed me again and then moved her hand around John's cock realizing how big it really is.  This is the point where I think my wife was really ruined regarding sex with me because, when she felt how huge that cock is, she said, "OH MY GOD!"  Also by this time with the two of us playing with her and knowing what was getting ready to happen, her pussy was soaked.  We laid her back on the bed, locked her wrist cuffs together and I held her arms over her head as she started sucking me.  Meanwhile John was in position between her legs and she was so wet, pretty much with one shove he was buried in her.  So much for sucking me as her mouth went slack, she let go with a loud moan and if she hadn't been blindfolded I'm pretty sure I would have seen her eyes go unfocused.  I think I wrote in the Penis Size Charts that John slid in her pussy she orgasmed, John fucked her hard, she orgasmed, John fucked her slow, she orgasmed, John rested for a minute, she orgasmed, John shot cum in her pussy and she orgasmed.  After John had cum in her, I got my chance and you've heard the jokes about hitting one side or the other, that's pretty much what I was doing.  But it was also when I discovered something.  When I realized that I was fucking her through another man's cum, that I was getting sloppy seconds, I started cumming hard.  I found out that I liked being the second (or seventh) in her pussy. When I orgasmed,  I went and got a warm washcloth to clean her up some and by then John was hard again.  Needless to say, she was delighted by that and of course delighted by John going even longer the second time.  She screamed, shoved her hips up at him as hard as she could, moaned, she thrashed around or in other words, she gave all the indications of a woman getting her brains fucked out, something I had never been able to do.  All the way home she kept saying, "Holy fuck I can't believe he made me feel like that" over and over plus she had this look on her face I've seen many times since then when men have given her great sex.  But that was the night my wife became a size queen.  After that we set her up an ad in an online sex site to meet men and, after she found out she liked pussy too, women.  With the men, if she met them and liked them, she would fuck them once or twice no matter what their size.  But the ones she stuck with for long term affairs were mostly the well hung men.  Like I said, she became a size queen when I ruined it for my little cock.