From Good Girl To Hotwife

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A Sex Vacation

One thing I have found being castrated for well over a year now is I am becoming a bit submissive.  Oh, I’m not talking about the put a dog collar on me and lead me around on a leash submissive.  Just less resistant to things.  For instance, my wife told me the other day she was going to Florida with one of her boyfriends for a few days of fun and nights of hot fucking.  Now while I love being a cuckold and the thought of my wife sleeping with another man has always been wonderfully humiliating, I would normally have wanted to go along on a trip like that.  But in this instance, I just said “Have fun.”  Another example involves this same boyfriend.  He had just finished fucking my wife and they were still snuggled in bed when he looked at me (he likes me to watch) and said, “Go get us a couple of glasses of wine.”  While it wasn’t said in a nasty manner, it also wasn’t a request, just a flat statement.  In the past, I would have brought the wine but I also would have given it back to him with something like, “Just who was your fucking maid last week?” 

But this also made me think.  This particular boyfriend works from home about 95% of the time.  His house has what’s called a Mother-In-Law apartment off the back deck.  It’s basically what’s now being called a tiny house and was where his mother-in-law lived prior to his divorce.  What I was thinking is, my wife and I have plenty of time off so what would it be like if we lived with him for say a month.  Well, actually it would be the two of them living together as husband and wife while I live in the apartment.  As their maid.  The only thing I would be allowed to wear seven days a week would be maid’s uniforms and I would do all the cooking, laundry, and cleaning.  Maybe just a plain uniform with flats for the daytime and a nice frilly French maid uniform with heels for the nights and weekends.   The only drawback I can see to this is she might not want to ever leave after 30 days and nights of being long dicked by him.  Of course, since the boyfriend is bi and likes to occasionally fuck me, after 30 days I might not want to leave either.

The Long "Arm" Of The Law

We live on the outskirts of a very large city and there is an attorney in the city who is quite successful, rich, handsome, single and has beautiful silver hair that he pulls back in a short ponytail.  All in all, the kind of man who makes who makes women drool.  He also has a very large cock and is fantastic in bed.  How do I know that?  Easy, my wife told me because he was one of her boyfriends for a while.  I've watched him sink his beautiful cock into my wife and heard her scream through a lot of orgasms while being fucked by him.  My wife says, out of the over 350 men she's fucked, if he isn't the best she's ever had, he's in the top five.  What's really funny is they met at a gang bang.  Hers!  He was one of the men attending and according to her, the other 8 men combined didn't come close to satisfying her as well as he did.  When the gang bang was over, my wife actually gave him her phone number and he obviously did call.  They saw each other for close to a year and I know my wife still thinks about him.  After all, he's well known here and is on the news frequently.  I swear the other night, when the news showed him in a courtroom, my wife had an orgasm just sitting in her chair.

Oh, I said he had a beautiful cock and he did.  It was about 8.5 inches and wonderfully proportioned, not too thick, not too thin.  I really wanted to fluff it.  Hell, I wanted to suck it until he shot a load down my throat, I wanted him to fuck me and cum in my ass.  But that wasn't something he was interested in, just my wife's pussy (and her blowjobs).  The closest I got was to clean his cum out of my wife.

Things That Turn Men On

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Panties Crusted With Cum

I saw this picture on Tumblr of a woman holding a pair of panties and I have a pair quite similar to them.  In fact, I was wearing them the night I lost my anal cherry when Al fucked my ass and shot a huge load of cum in me confirming me as a sissy faggot.  I put them back on that night and, when I woke up in the morning, cum had leaked out of me crusting in the panties.  I sealed those panties in a baggie and years later, Al's cum is still crusted in the crotch.  I occasionally look at them and think of that night, the feeling of Al's cock in my ass the first time, him thrusting into me, and finally the feeling of his hot cum boiling into my ass.  I've had a lot of cocks in my ass since, but girls always say you never forget your first and they are right.  Al was my first lover, the man who confirmed me as a queer sissy faggot and I'll never forget him.

Penile Implant

One of my wife's former lovers had a penile implant so he could get an erection.  It works by simply pumping liquid into tubes that are inserted into the area of the penis that normally fills with blood.  The reservoir is hidden in the body and the pump is in the scrotum shown in the illustration above.  By gently squeezing and releasing the pump, liquid is pumped into the tubes in the penis causing an erection.  When finished with the erection you simply squeeze and hold the pump letting the fluid drain out allowing the penis to become flaccid.

My wife said she absolutely loved kneeling, sucking his cock and pumping it up to an erection at the same time.  She also said a few times she sucked him while she pumped him up, held the pump to deflate, pump, deflate over and over.  She said the best part was when he would cum, it stayed hard.  She could blow him until he would cum and then he could immediately start fucking her.  Or he could fuck her, cum in her and keep fucking.  According to her, that was the best part.  They could just keep fucking and fucking and fucking until they both were exhausted before they allowed his cock to deflate.

I'm sure someone has thought, am I thinking about an implant like that so I can get an erection?  NO!!!!!  Why on earth would a castrated sissy cuckold like me want an erection?

The Wonderful Aspects of Castration

OK, the other day I wrote that the horrible thing about castration is you can only experience the thrill of it once in a lifetime.  But, for a sissy like me, there are some wonderful aspects to castration also.

One of the first things you begin to experience as testosterone levels drop is a lack of interest in sex.  While it varies from person to person, my interest dropped rapidly.  It's really hard to explain to anyone who is not castrated but I'll try.  Before I was castrated, I was pretty much already impotent but even when you're impotent you still have a libido, still have desires even though as a sissy you try to resist them.  After castration, and again it varies by person, you have no libido, no desire for sex.  Oh sure I remember having sex with my wife and if I was able to get a hard on I could physically have sex.  I just don't understand why anyone would want to go through that much effort for an orgasm.  I just don't comprehend it.  The closest I can come to explaining it is this.  Look at this formula involved with covariant derivative which is something to do with the theory of relativity.  Unless you're a theoretical physicist it probably makes absolutely no sense to you.
 
That's how I see sex.  It makes as much sense to me as that formula does to you.  And no, I don't understand the formula either, I just copied it from Wikipedia.

The second wonderful aspect is shrinkage.  As a sissy, one thing you really don't want is a large cock getting hard.  Many sissies in fact are in chastity to prevent erections and it's a known fact that without erections, the penis starts shrinking.  What happens, as I understand it, is the chambers that fill with blood in the penis start to become less flexible and doesn't expand as much so the penis doesn't get as large as before.  Then, again my understanding, is the valve that closes and keeps blood in the penis eventually gets to the point where it doesn't close and erections become very difficult to achieve which means more shrinkage.  Much of the penis elasticity is controlled by the 4 or so erections males have a night lasting about 45 minutes and many times the reason for "morning wood."  In chastity, those erections can't happen.  It really is the old "use it or lose it" adage.   But with castration, that shrinkage is amplified and more rapid.  Most long term eunuchs will tell you without erections, the penis will shrink back to prepubertal size which varies from small at 2.4cm to large at 5cm (0.94 to 2 inches).  If you put that in a Bell curve, it means 2 percent of 9 year old boys will be under an inch and 2 percent will be right at 2 inches with the majority between 1.4 and 1.5 inches.  Because I have always been on the small side, I had hoped to shrink to less than 1" and I'm right at 1 inch now.  Imagine driving by a grade school and knowing all the boys have balls which you don't and that 99 percent of the boys in grades 1-4 have a bigger dick than you.  Wonderfully humiliating!!